Standing at your grave Hey brother it s been a long time Eleven years to be exact I can t really tell you why I haven t been back since the funeral I m not really sure A lot in me has changed since you knew me you probably wouldn t like me much now I was amazed at how many people we hated and made fun of showed up at your funeral but then again that s all that was left wasn t it You were the last one in our circle I had left I suppose maybe if I d been a more loyal friend I would have followed you but I was hurt and scared and confused I m sorry The lonelyness was the worst part being the only one left from the circle alive having to deal with all those idiots who didn t know us having to listen to all their emotionless ineffectual attempts at comfort Hearing I know how you feel over and over and over again along with their macabe interest in talking with you about it You know how much I hate that statement They don t know how I feel because they are NOT me How can anyone be so rude as to assume they really know how another feels But then again you knew that didn t you The la ughable part of it all is that I actually tried to explain what it s like to have the last person on earth you trusted ripped away from you It was a hard road with no one to trust I almost joined you Sometimes it scares the shit out of me to know I m the only one left I can t really say why it s taken me eleven years to come back here I suppose I should make some profound explaination of what I learned from all this brother but I can t All I can say is it s been a long hard road here so far and I wish you had been here with me I miss you -PSYCHO78